Author Archive | Lara DeAnn

Ancient Warmth

I miss your toes,

I wake up missing you

Go to sleep missing you

Spend the day pretending I don’t miss you

I walk the Earth now without you

But you glide above me

My arms no longer fit around your torso

My eyes no longer meet your eyes

Though your energy caresses me

You are here, yet also there

I am almost here and not yet there

I walk in-between hoping to find you

I find neither you nor myself

I wait for your return in another

I make you there

Force their arms to be yours

Their voice with you behind it

You were my Ancient Warmth

That wrapped around me safety

You cradled me, shielded me

Braced and embraced me

I leaned on your Ancient Warmth

To bring me Home

Now I must find my own Ancient Warmth

Inside of myself

I wanted you to do it for me

So I wouldn’t have to rise to my own occasion

I wanted to always hide my strength

Behind yours

Now you stepped aside physically

And I feel exposed

God does this to wake me.

Do Not Hurry

Do not hurry

There will be time for everything,

At least, that is, everything that is really important.

Do not hurry,

Just sit to watch the water

falling to the next rock,

follow a drop with your eyes

and watch it.

Do not hurry.

And then you may realize

The Gratitude you feel

For having eyes to see.

Do not hurry.

And when you begin to slow

And see, and watch

Slowly, one Gratitude begets another

And having eyes to see

Now also becomes Gratitude

For legs that have gotten you this far along the road.

And though at times,

You may call this road long and lonely,

It is a good road,

When you take away

The demands you place upon it.

When you do not hurry

You make friends with those on the road

And become Grateful for them as well.

Then it is no longer a long road,

But a road long enough

But feels short when you get near the end.

Then the road is now not lonely,

But quietly serene,

As you enjoy your own company,

That sometimes gets complimented by another,

In the appropriate timing.

Then it is no longer a long and lonely road,

But dips and forks when it should

And becomes gravel and back to paved

When you are ready,

When you do not hurry,

But let life be its own experience

Without your constant input

Of how your ego mind thinks it should go.

Relax.  Surrender.  Receive.  Allow.  And Trust.

And Trust these words that you hear whispered to you

When you are quiet enough to hear Me inside,

Between your nervous breaths,

Do not hurry!

I have put enough flowers on your path

For you to be inspired.

I’ve put enough people

for you to hear the words you need

From those who have opened their ears

To hear the words I planted there

So they might speak

And share Universal Wisdom.

I’ve put enough food on the Earth

For you to be nourished by

So that you have energy to dance

When you finally feel Me in your feet.

I’ve put enough rhythm in your Soul

For you to sing your way to Heaven.

Go now, but do not hurry.

Each step leads you somewhere

And you must listen in the silence

To hear the appropriate direction.

Go now, but do not hurry,

The road is long enough

But feels short when you get near the end.

Oceans of Love

We often swim in oceans,

Hoping to find one that moves our current

Just in the right direction

Hoping to find one that always sees us with loving eyes

And helps us to see ourselves in greater ways

Love is this mutual support

That reminds us that We are love

And helps us to express this exquisite energy

To channel this vast ocean of delight

Into feelings that can be received

by open arms.

You now both swim together

Feeling held in love’s bay.

You are amongst the lucky ones

Whom have met their soulmate

in just the right conditions

for sharing your lives

by uniting in this holy matrimony.

 

May you explore the oceans of love

Deepening your commitment

By diving many leagues down

To dwell in the stillness of what is infinite

By becoming the essence of compassion

 

When we truly understand another,

We receive them, fully

Just as the ocean receives what swims in it

Receive then, receive with open arms

And remain receptive, like the water

That always makes space for change.

Be sturdy, like the land

That is like an eternal vase

Holding the energy of acceptance.

Be generous,

Like the sun

That warms us even in the winter.

And remain playful in your hearts

As you swim together in the oceans of love

 

Love as Living Art

Love wants to come out

Wants to demonstrate

Wants to caress

Wants to march

To run

To dance

It has no boundaries

It’s only desire, to be expressed

Some translate love into art

Into writing

Into cooking

Into sailing

Into dancing

Into singing

Some care for others

Some feed animals

Some feed people

Some travel around the world

And look at things

Some make it a big deal

Others express love quietly

In their own unique way

Unseen by most.

A couple to be married

Expresses their Love to each other

And makes an art of that

They exquisitely care for the other

They communicate impeccably

The uniting of their lives

is a holy undertaking

It is a living art

They have to give life to Understanding

Life to Compassion

Life to being Good Listeners

Life to being Good Enthusiasts

They have to bring Support

into each other’s lives

Helping the other reach their Dreams

some of which they share

others of which are uniquely their own.

They lead other couples by example

“Look!” they remind

“Look what Love can create!”

And their Love is alive because it is creative

It moves, it breathes,

it becomes all of who they are

They learn together every facet

of what Love means

Their life journey becomes the discovery of Love

in all that they do

in all that they are.

Marriage then, is not only about

Committing to one another,

it is about expressing Love

as Living Art

It moves, it grows, it learns

It teaches, it creates expansion

It pushes open the heart-center

from horizon to way past horizon.

Let this Love take you Home

to your True Selves

Let it wash away all that no longer serves

Let it expand your heart

so that your actions are infused with Grace

Let is saturate you

so that your state of being

becomes like a flowering poem

rhyming in all the right places

and pausing to allow feelings

at all the right times.

Let this Love become who you are

Learn to share it

as Living Art

that has no museum

but is displayed everywhere you are

letting the vibration of Love

pave the Way for all to follow.

 

 

 

Your Love

One day you will be able to describe the indescribable

One day you will be able to put down on paper your feelings and emotions

But on this day, they are in flight, they cannot be put to words

They dance on the wind and sing in your ears

They flutter about your face like lillies turned to butterflies

You cannot describe the feelings of Love when Love has you distracted by its very nature

You cannot concentrate on form and sentence when this energy lifts you far from earth

And yet one day, you will force yourself, you will somehow describe just how Love feels.

Always, always we strive to describe this Love that has not boundaries  nor explanations

It is beyond comprehension, yet we wish to contain it anyway

And attempt to share our feelings

It is useless, this love cannot be tamed and cannot be described

Rather I can sing to you and hum the tones that the hummingbirds make

– in the silence of the morning

Theirs are a flight in every direction, limitless, multi-dimensional,

Maybe we should just look to the unlimited flight of the hummingbird to explain this love

What a waste to attempt to put meaning on that which is beyond our comprehension

Better to just watch the hummingbird in flight and point to its magnificence.

There, that brilliance, that miraculous miracle, that freedom of flight

That is the feeling of Love when I cannot describe its ecstasy

I can just point to a flying miracle, there that is how it feels, that feeling right there,

The unlimited flight of a hummingbird,

those are the wordless sentiments that describe what cannot be spoken.

The miracle of Love taking flight.

I Wish

I wish I knew

That you were my star

Shining with me.

I wish I knew

That our hearts made music

In between the beats

When we stopped to listen.

I wish I had pitter patter in my pulse

Excited each day to see you.

I wish I knew

That I desired to wake up to you each morning.

 

What I do know

Is that the wind blows

It blows away the tangles in my head

That needed clearing

That the water running in the river

Is washing clean

The debris that had washed upon my shore

I know that it has now put the boat back in

And threw away its oars

I know that the sun will shine

When it stops raining inside of me

I know that it will stop.

I know that your hand placed in mine is warm.

I know that the smile on your face

Leads to a heart that is also smiling

I know that when you give

There are no hidden strings attached

I know you are pure

And only mean well.

I know you care about me

Beyond what I’ve ever experienced

And that you are stable

Like a four legged steel table.

I know that your eyes tell the truth

And give the secrets in your heart exposure.

I know that you will surprise me with even more

And I will be amazed at the continuing abundance.

I wish I knew that I could receive all of that now.

But, I don’t.

I know I will pry my fingers open

And let go of what I was carrying

that no longer serves

This, I know.

I Hope

I hope that when I see you again

After almost two months of physical separation

That my eyes meet yours

That my eyes let you know

You are loved.

I hope my eyes grab you in, hold you and kiss you

All in one glance.

I hope my heart pitter patters

To your heart,

Forming their own music

That we will later dance to

I hope all of this

But, really I hope that our hands meet

And hold one another

With just our palms and fingers touching

Letting each other know we feel held,

we feel our souls connected,

As our hands clasp one another’s

In a hand holding where our hearts are in the center of our palms

pulsing secretly to each other

The whole world not being able to see

The secret of our hearts

Connecting and beating in our palms

So that when we are out n’ about

holding hands in public

No one needs to know

That we are really mingling our hearts

That we are really uniting our souls

That we are finding comfort in each other’s palms,

Secretly, mysteriously

Locking hands and fingers

As if they are the heart and soul of our union.

I hope my eyes feel this, too.

And my heart.

And my feet, walking next to you.

And my skin feeling yours near now.

My being quenched by your presence.

I hope my eyes tell you what you want to hear.

What Am I Supposed to Do?

What am I supposed to do

With this energy

that has me a few feet above ground….

Soaring high to be able to see you

Just to feel you, I am on a lighter plane

And the heaviness of the past is gone from me.

I don’t even know myself anymore,

You entered my life

And my Soul now has a new address.

Will I ever get used to

The new drive to my new home

Or will it always seem crisp and exciting?

You improve everything you lay your eyes upon.

Just by knowing you, I am cleaner inside

And I smile more.

Life is now more simple

For I can now find happiness

in small details

And the need for events the size of skyscrapers

to make me happy

is gone.

I can now feel the beauty in a breeze

And peace comes to me on its own,

No longer having to beg for it.

Your presence in my life has me Grateful

for what has always been there,

but, my internal atmosphere

had been too loud to hear.

Now there is space for me to listen

To what really matters,

To be able to receive deeply what I see

And when I feel what you perceive.

Unconditional Love

Abundant, Unconditional, Phenomenal Love

We wait patiently,

Until we find you-

Until you find us-

Until we go within and create it there,

We may be an empty vessel

Waiting for paint to color our insides

We might be a hollow for God’s Grace,

Waiting patiently to hear our calling.

I wait God, to be filled

With my intentions

With my creations

With God’s essence of pure Love.

I waited, believing I’d be filled

By a Power Greater than I could conceive,

I waited.

Then I created,

Created this space to be filled with Unconditional Love

Whereas before I created conditional love

And took myself on a stormy voyage

That would have lasted for eons

In circles around any globe.

I somehow pulled myself out of that creation

and created another one,

This one has Unconditional Love as its center

And my name as its vibration.

I attach myself to Oneness

And forget the grueling uphill climb

That had once been too familiar

I let go of conditions

And now include you, too

You are fine, next to me

Whatever body you are in,

Whatever smile you carry

But, make this the only thing you carry

As the past holds too much weight

And we cannot wait any longer

For flaws to turn into perfections.

I dump the load

And fly around like a dragon fly’s first day

I am free now,

My Unconditional Love is now my base

I can stand on it to see the view

And Heaven looks better from up here.

 

 

It Takes Courage

It took courage –

To let go of a past in a quick move forward,

A move that took forever to prepare for

But only a moment to take action.

There was a timely passage,

A now that pushed us

-Go!-

In that instant my two eyes became one

And I was able to “see” beyond

My mind’s preoccupation of pointless details of “what if…” fears.

Now the “what if’s” are “wouldn’t it be lovely if…”

As we now know

We create our own reality to feel Heaven

As I let go of the attachment to form,

I instead reinforce the attachment to Gratitude

And make that the religion I cling to.

Thankful for this moment,

Grateful for what brought me to this moment,

Giving Thanks for the next one.